I Wanna Hold Your Hand

I work on the High Street. I see people holding hands every day: children, teenage lovers and elderly, been-together-a-lifetime couples. They make me smile. They fill my heart with joy, but equally they make me aware that from, let’s say mid twenties to late eighties, most of us do not hold hands other than with our children or grandchildren. There is a huge hand-holding void that lurks in our middle years like the Supermassive Black hole at the centre of our determinedly non-tactile galaxy, crushing this little human bond like super-gravity on thistledown. Hold hands on the street with your partner in your forties or fifties and the assumption will be that you have had/are having an affair – that you are trying to prove something to the outside world: ‘Look, we are still together. Nothing to see here.’ Hold hands with someone other than your spouse and you will be ‘trending’ on social media quicker than Elon Musk can change his mind.

Everybody smiles when the ‘snake’ of schoolchildren bustles by, hand in hand, all noise and excitement, gripping their line-buddy’s hand for comfort and security: sad and happy at the same time that they are not one of the chosen few at the back who get to hold the teacher’s hand. (N.B. It is a proven fact that all children under ten years of age have permanently sticky hands. Watch where they put them and you will know why.)

The furtive joy of holding hands with first boyfriend/girlfriend is something that will never be forgotten: for most, a happier memory than first sex. One of life’s few unregrettables. The pre-Facebook statement of Status: ‘Dating’. Hands remain locked through courtship and, perhaps, wedding, but after a brief honeymoon period it stops, other than for days out, holidays and trips to the midwife. A great, glaring void that takes us right through to old age when hand-holding becomes at least as much a physical need as an emotional one: two centres of gravity are better than one.

According to the man who knows everything at the other end of the internet (let’s call him Wiki), the main reason that humans hold hands is because it promotes a sense of security. In the western world it is linked to romance, but elsewhere this is not necessarily the case. (Whatever, I wouldn’t recommend it for same-sex couples in Riyadh.) It’s hard to imagine why we would turn our backs on such a simple comfort through the bulk of our adult lives. Are we really so confident that we no longer crave the closeness of human touch, so stupid that we can only view contact as sexual? Well, yes, I think we probably are.

So, I believe that it is time for us all to rise up, our chance to change the world. This is our campaign. Let’s realign our attitude to hand-holding: shifting it from a sign of romance to one of friendship. Why shouldn’t friends hold hands? It might mean that we have to come up with an alternative gesture for those romantically involved – identical tattoos, matching T-shirts, a shared hat, we’ll think of something – but surely it is not beyond the wit of humankind: we are, after all, going to defeat climate change without excess effort or hardship (aren’t we?) All we need to do is to align ourselves against the tide of stilted modern convention, all hold hands and sing ‘We shall not be moved’…

Famous Last Words…

J.K.Rowling famously claimed to have written the final sentence of the Harry Potter saga before she started the first book – a little hard to believe, I must admit, as the whole saga was all too clearly written ‘on the hoof’ – however, in the spirit of giving it a go, I give you here the final few paragraphs of my next-to-be-written novel, which I will seal in a plain brown envelope and burn before setting to work on the full tome…

…Disconcertedly, or as near to it as his trousers would allow, Champion peered over the edge of the precipice. It was not a big precipice, as precipices go – somewhere between a plunge and a plummet – but none-the-less deep enough and steep enough to ensure that Rapscallion would never re-emerge. All that remained for Algernon Champion now was to find the nuclear trigger and save the day. (Hurrah!)

The bomb, he knew, thanks to Q’s fiendish tracking device (an AirTag sellotaped to a fridge magnet) was buried deep in the Earth’s core. The detonator had to be wirelessly triggered because no single cable could possibly reach down that far – at least without several Qibaok Butt Slice Crimp Connectors and several rolls of insulation tape, so he needed to search for a radio transmitter, but the city was full of wireless telephone masts and he had only two minutes to find the right one.

How, he wondered, would he know it? Would it have a large, flashing LED countdown timer at its base? Would it have some impenetrable puzzle to solve before it could be disarmed? Would it have a cunningly concealed On/Off switch where the inventor believed it would never be found? He bloody well hoped so: his head was ringing and his mouth was dry. His eyes had some kind of gauze across them and even his aches ached. Whose idea was it to try the tequila Martinis last night? Who kept suggesting the triethylene chasers? What was his name – Blowfeld, Drax, Voldermort, Icke… No, Derek, that was it! Derek. Spotty little geek, always on the phone.

The phone! Of course, the phone, that was the detonator! The realisation hit Algernon hard. He had spent the entire evening prior to what could well be the end of the world, drinking chemical shots with the evil mastermind who intended to bring it to be. He owed it to himself, to the world, to the poor sod he had just thrown off the cliff (whoever he was) to stop the bomb, to foil Derek Rapscallion, but when he looked at his Sekonda watch (the Rolex was in for service and would not be back for eighteen months) he knew that the time had passed…

…Back in the bar, where he had remained since the previous evening, Derek rapscallion peeled his pounding forehead from the driptray and stared, somewhat hazily, at the timer on his phone. He would have smiled evilly, but he feared there might be dire consequences. 5-4-3-2-1. Silence. No blinding flash, no searing heat, no almighty Kerboom! How disappointing. He tried, once again, to focus on the screen of his phone. Bugger, no signal! He was sitting directly under a metal curtain rail. Oh well, for Derek too, the moment was gone…

George Dixon’s Whistle

I grew up in the age of Dixon of Dock Green, where a lone policeman would turn up at the scene of a crime in progress and say, in a calm but unwavering voice, “You can pack that in chummy,” at which point the miscreants (however overwhelming their number) would give themselves up without a fight, muttering darkly about it being ‘a fair cop’ and squabbling amongst themselves about who should get to be restrained with the only pair of available handcuffs, whilst simultaneously cowering away from the ultimate threat posed by Dixon’s whistle.

We all know (don’t we?) that times have changed and crime ain’t wot it used to be. Modern criminals would not surrender to the law without first being tasered and wrapped, mummy-like, in gaffer tape. Cornered by a lone bobby with nothing more that his whistle and a trusty truncheon, the modern criminal would more likely fall about laughing than hand himself in. How quickly the salt-of-the-earth foes of Dixon became the gangland nemeses of The Sweeney’s Carter and Regan. No amount of fevered whistling would persuade them to give themselves up without a fight – undeterred by the uniform of the law-keeper, no longer the super-hero armour it once was – emboldened by the knowledge that the elusive ‘criminal mastermind’ was probably, at the same time, the Chief Constable.

And then crime, like everything else, joined the computer age: from basic ‘click the link’ scams to the more complicated financial and ‘romance’ scams, allowing the thieves the opportunity to not only steal the victim’s money, but their self-esteem as well: warehouses full of people determined to extract banking details from anyone unwary enough not to doubt the motives of everyone they encounter. Where they manage to find quite so many amoral, cyber cold-callers is beyond me. Has the human race really sunk so low? Well yes, of course it has. Today we have to assume that everyone is corrupt, or risk falling prey to the amoralistic wolves at the virtual straw house door. Perhaps more depressing yet, if the TV is to be believed – and when has it ever lied to us? – the only people at all equipped to catch these miscreants are ex-offenders: poachers turned gamekeepers – rich wrongdoers keen to accumulate the kudos of Robin Hood. There always has been an inordinate amount to be gained from being a sinner turned saint.

Sadly, here in the UK, we have now seen the birth of a new kind of crime. Through the ages, the one thing uniting wrong-doers of all kinds was the simple desire to not get caught, but times have truly changed, because now we are witnessing the rise of those who really don’t give a toss one way or the other. Organised through social media, they just turn up at a designated time and place in such number that they feel (and in fact are) totally at liberty to steal whatever they desire from the chosen store or even – ask the residents of Boston (UK) – town with total impunity. The police do not have the time or numbers to respond; shopkeepers, shopworkers and even security staff are powerless against overwhelming odds, and the thieves just walk away with the booty, totally immune to justice.

Is it an indication that might is the new right, that the evil are beginning to outnumber the good; that decency is something that now belongs in The British Museum? I hope not, someone is bound to nick it.

Night Thoughts

I’m sitting here, in the darkness of night, lit only by the sepulchral glow of LED, trying to decide between being medusozoa or monkey. You know what it’s like: all you want to do is to offer a little amusement, to make people smile, even occasionally to make them laugh: to offer a small diversion for the less than five minutes it takes to read what has taken – although it seldom shows – considerably longer to write. From dog bowl to pavement takes many hours. To put your foot in the by-product takes less than a second, but once you have liberally coated your shoe, you will walk around for days before you realise where the smell is coming from. It will take even longer to chip it out of the sole and shagpile. When you read, words seep in. They form a lining to the brain that you may not even realise is there, until some of it starts to peel.

It is common – although possibly apocryphal – knowledge that we lose thousands of brain cells each day as we get older. The understanding that the holes are growing ever-larger hangs over all of us. Names, appointments and car keys fall into the cracks with alarming regularity. Habits drop into fissures, swirl around with no means of escape, and become obsession. Just try going to bed without checking the locks: you will not sleep, you will have to get up at some stage during the night to check them. Eventually you will have to do so even if you have already checked them before turning in. It becomes a battle of wills: You versus You. You versus your own obsessive tendencies:
“Did you check the locks?”
“Yes I did.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I’m sure.”
“Really really sure?”
You might as well get up and recheck straight away, because otherwise you are going to have to listen to yourself whittle for the rest of the night:
“Were they locked?”
“Yes.”
“Are you sure?”
I know people who take photographs before they go to bed, but it wouldn’t work for me:
“Yes, but are they today’s photo’s?”
“Yes.”
“Are you sure?”

Sleep, itself, becomes a more slippery beast as you get older. It becomes a matter of either remaining unconscious right through (despite the concern that ‘right through’ might just lead to eternity) or not sleeping at all. And when you’re up in the night? Well, you might as well read, hadn’t you? You might as well have a cup of tea, you might as well have cake, and if it is your mission to amuse, you might as well turn anxiety into entertainment. After all, whatever you write in the wee small hours cannot possibly make any less sense than what you write at any other time and it always pays to keep the brain active, right? Just a quick glance at the internet will give you something to discuss won’t it? Well no, because there is only so much you can say about skateboarding cats…

So what else is there to find? Well, this being the way that the internet works, what I found was an article from October 1996 (Aging Brains Lose Less Than Thought by William J Cromie, The Harvard Gazette) headlined like today’s big news which asserts that ‘Oldsters’ – a term that is used throughout and is, as far as I am concerned, more than sufficient defence in a homicide trial – actually lose far less in the way of brain mass as they get older than was previously believed, because the gouda-like specimens extruded from the elderly craniums for post-mortem rummaging in the past had all been those of dementia sufferers. The point being that if some degree of dementia was not present, the diminution of mental processing capability would not have been so advanced. Unless, of course, some degree of dementia is present in everyone over a certain age e.g. 16 years. It also goes on to say that although we do not necessarily lose brain cells as part of the normal process of aging, those that we do have, do not work so well which – for reasons my own poor, enfeebled elderly brain cannot fathom – is much better. Perhaps a skull full of jelly fish is far better than one half full of chimpanzees.

I’ll spend the night mulling it over…

General Purpose Flat-Pack Furniture Construction Instructions

Remove all items from box and lay out on the floor – not you, the pieces, buffoon. Refer to Contents List to ensure that nothing is missing. (N.B. If the Contents List is missing, refer to a higher power. If the Higher Power is missing, refer to David Icke. If David Icke is missing, refer to Mrs B Clench, 13 Alpha Centauri Terrace for full refund.)
Place all pieces of wood in a single pile, all plastic items in a recyclable bag and all screws, nuts, bolts, grackle pins and assorted metal paraphernalia into a Tupperware container.
Pick up the largest piece of wood and hold it against the diagram. (If the diagram is missing, do not worry, it will be the wrong one anyway.) Does it look at all like the one you should be holding? If not, you are a) looking at an old copy of The Joy of Sex or b) holding the wrong part. Try again.
When you are satisfied that you are holding the right part, e.g. one that looks vaguely reminiscent of Part A, Diagram 1, put it to one side. As you do so, you will notice a large sticker on it saying Part A. Do not attempt to kick the cat – you will almost certainly give yourself a hernia.
Using Diagram 1, locate all pieces of wood that join with Part A – almost certainly parts B,C,D and E unless either the packer, the labeller or, most likely you, are dyslexic – and lay them alongside the previously found Part Q.
Take the Tupperware container and empty all fittings from their carefully numbered plastic bags into a neat little pile on the floor. Henceforth, do not worry if the ‘correct’ fitting looks nothing like the one in the illustration: if it fits, screw it as tight as it will go. If it does not fit, screw it as tight as it will go.
Ignore any instruction warning against the use of power tools. They were almost certainly written by a Swede with biceps like granite and the grip of a gorilla.
The pieces that you have now screwed together are referred to as the carcass, because they will look like a dead animal.
Look carefully at the pieces you have left. Do they look like drawers or doors? If the former, you may be attempting to construct a dressing table, a bedside cabinet or a filing cabinet; if the latter, you are either i) constructing a wardrobe or ii) accidentally dismantling the kitchen units.
You will now need to fit handles/knobs/letterboxes/auxiliary flux drives. In the case of knobs and handles you should either drill new holes as marked and screw in place best poss, or affix with BlueTack. In the case of the letterbox, you have almost certainly signed for the wrong delivery, or you are in next-door’s hallway. If your neighbour appears to have a Welsh Dresser for a front door, say nothing, but put your own house on the market ASAP. In the case of the auxiliary flux drive, you will initially need to locate the Essential Photon Accelerator (EPA). If the cat is glowing green, it has in all likelihood swallowed the EPA and will need to be fully submerged in concrete before it has the opportunity to cough up a furball that could take out half of Western Europe.
If, when completed, the construction stands unaided, you have probably got it wrong. If it lurches wildly to one side, tighten all available screws and lean against a sturdy external wall – not you, the furniture cretin! Explain to your partner that the integral ratchet pin has been incorrectly forged and nail the whole assemblage to the doorframe.
Review all unused pieces and decide if they could be nailed anywhere to increase rigidity – don’t you think it’s time to throw The Joy of Sex away? – and stop it scalping the cat.
Carefully sort all remaining fittings and file in any available drawer. If they fall straight through, you will at least know what you should have done with one of the spare pieces of wood (see 12 [above]). Replace it with a carefully cut piece of cardboard and gaffer tape.
Check insurance. Sign nothing!

Wee Small Hours

It’s amazing how much more often you see the wee small hours as you get older.

When I was younger I saw 2am only when I was either a) heading towards the toilet, b) heading towards a crying baby or c) missing a deadline by a few thousand words. I’ve never slept well, but I’m not much of a night-time prowler either. Generally I go to bed at night (in preference to the next morning) and I stay there until I get up. Well, I did…

These days you will far more often find me drinking herbal tea, watching shit on TV and trying to remember what I should have done earlier. Usually, what I should have done is to have gone to sleep before the men on the television started getting their knobs out for appraisal by someone who, if you’re asking me to be honest, probably would have been much wiser to have kept her own trollies* on. Somewhere, one of us has something fundamentally wrong with them and if it’s me, I’m not sure that I want it putting right. But then I remember how old I am and realise that it just doesn’t matter anymore**…

This is the point at which the voices inside my head start to manifest themselves physically: I constantly worry about the state of my teeth and my inability to eat anything with a texture firmer than blancmange (and that only as long as it is not lumpy) without fearing the total collapse of my mouth. In the small hours my teeth throb in tune with my concerns. I am acutely aware of all my contemporaries, many of whom are dying around me: usually tee-total, exercise loving folk with healthy diets and an equable temper, and I wonder if sloth, drinking and eating crap might not be all that is keeping me alive – but when I close my eyes, I can hear my arteries hardening, my chest grating and my heart playing a Neil Peart drum solo. In the middle of the night, staying alive feels like a major achievement. In the daytime, I am driven along by the ‘practical’, but night time is dominated by ‘theory’ and I begin to conclude that, by rights, I might just be running out of road: the engine is knackered, the suspension shot and there is almost certainly a major leak in the sump somewhere.

These days, I calm myself down by drinking an infusion of some weed or another: camomile is the current favourite although I wouldn’t entirely rule out anything that I am relatively sure has not been piddled on by a dog, if I had any indication at all that it might chase me back to sleep. “Hemlock? Why yes, you’ll have the best night’s sleep you’ve ever had.”
“Will I wake up refreshed?”
“Er…”

The worst thing about being awake at this time is that it makes me aware of just how often I am now awake at this time and I have to try and find some way of taking my mind off it if I am ever to find sleep again. So, where was I? Oh yes, right then, which vagina would I pick for a date? – definitely not the one that reminds me of Donald Trump’s mugshot – so it will probably have to be the one in the middle that looks vaguely human…

*Underwear

**This little TV aberration is called ‘Naked Attraction,’ a dating program in which the sole criteria for choosing your ‘date’ appears to be the size and shape of your prospective lover’s genitalia which, for no apparent reason, appears to be my TV’s default position at 2am. Now read on…

500 Wordsworth, or 42 Truths, or As Far As I’ve Got…

For any of you perceptive enough to have noticed that I have been away for a few days – even though, sadly for you, my regular posts persisted – I think the time has come to admit that I am back: the holiday is over. I can only apologize. While I was on my little break, I did something I very rarely do: nothing. That is – because obviously I did do something – I wrote nothing. Consequently I am here today facing five hundred wordsworth – approx (I refuse to be sued if that figure is not completely accurate) – of screen space and… well, that’s about it really: me, the blogosphere and 500(ish) wordsworth of cyberspace, so far unblemished by anything kicking around between my ears and dripping down onto the page.

I made a strict promise to myself: I will not whitter on about my holiday – you do not want to hear it and I do not want to be responsible for the literary equivalent of the hastily erected front room screen and five thousand slides worth of holiday snaps to view with nothing more than a warm, sweet sherry to numb the pain – and I intend to stick to that. It is gone, it was necessary, I am back: all is good.

So where to go today then? Well, I have always intended – that is I have fleetingly thought about and subsequently dismissed owing to my own ineptitude – to write a book based upon all the ‘life lessons’ I have learned over the almost sixty five years since my first appearance. There will probably be 42 of them, or 42 pages of them, or they will be accompanied by 42 wonderful, hand-crafted line-drawings or… something. Anyway, for now, simply because I have approximately 42 minutes in which to find something to publish, here are the very few I have thought of so far…

Read the manual: never stand on the top rung of a ladder.

The key to life seldom works unless somebody else has left the door open.

Right is only ever one side of the argument.

Take out a pen and paper in public and everyone assumes you are writing about them.

No matter what you do, nor how hard you try, some people will love you and some will hate you – unless, of course, you have just died, in which case everyone will love you.

When you are good, nobody notices. When you are bad, nobody forgets

Ignoring a person you believe is acting like an arse is never tolerated – people just assume that it is you who is being the arse.

Sometimes there is smoke without fire – also fire without smoke, smoke with fire, no smoke and no fire and, of course, dry roasted peanuts.

Finally, if you are feeling bad about the way age robs you of the ability to do some of the things you used to do in your prime, just remember that if you were a dog you would probably no longer be able to lick your own arse – and that would be considered a bad thing.

Ah, it’s good to be back…

Mrs Slocombe

A jockey once promised his horses
He would run them on only short courses
‘And also,’ he stated
‘Let my stallion be mated.’
A decision it fully endorses…

I toy with limericks all the time. Sometimes they just fall into my head complete, but mostly they drive me half mad. Generally they loiter between my ears for days, short of one crucial line or another. Getting the rhyme is easy, getting the correct ‘rumpty tumpty’ scan quite another. They often stand or fall on a single misplaced syllable, and finding the unexpected punchline for line five can be a real pain in the… oh, you know the word, one syllable, rhymes with farce. (Or pass in the US. Same place, same pain.)

…And you have to be so careful where you start – let’s face it There was an old lady from China is only heading one way isn’t it?

I posted quite a lot of ‘poetry’ back in the day under a ragged little thread of The Haphazardly Poetical (including a number of limericks under the title of There was an old poet called Lear) and also a series of Zoo posts – one for each letter of the alphabet – over twenty six weeks, which drove me the other half mad. There are some great poets on this site and, sadly, I am not among them, so my ‘poetry’ posts always seem a little incomplete to me: like I am somehow short-changing you, dear reader, but I do think I can knock out a decent limerick from time to time. (Reading back the limericks in ‘…Lear’ I did, with the luxury of four years passed, allow myself a quiet chuckle at some of my own rhymes. It’s weird how quickly you forget what you slaved over only a very short time ago e.g. removing the Top Secret documents from your shower before the feds drop by and your voter approval goes through the roof.)

I do have one or two long poems that have the potential to appear as independent posts in the future – but, on balance, I think they will almost certainly stay where they are. If I have any shorter things to play with, I may well drop them into the bottom of an unconnected post from time to time to see whether you are paying attention.

So, I planned to finish today’s little tussie-mussie with another limerick, but even as I started to write it down, a quite different little ditty burst into my brain complete (although without, it now seems, a beginning) and It is at this point that today’s little smorgasbord took off in a slightly unexpected direction, earning itself the title it most certainly did not have half an hour ago. It is this new limerick with which I am actually going to leave you with today, of which I would be totally ashamed if I was not able (due to the great power of afterthought) to dedicate it to the wonderful Mrs Slocombe (Mollie Sugden) of Are You Being Served? You can read about Mollie Sugden here – but it will do her no justice, because in an age of hyper-laced up sexuality, Mrs Slocombe’s pet cat, Tiddles – of course it was – kept a nation enthralled for more than a decade. She will be familiar only to people of my own vintage and nationality, but it’s my blog, so bugger it.

Though the man was incredibly wussy¹
She told him without any fuss he
Could happily pet her
Enormous red setter
But he had to stop stroking her pussy

¹ Wussy: (UK slang) weak, timid and ineffectual

Further Excerpts from the Village Magazine

…and Mrs Armitage supplied the Vaseline.

Pg 2. Recipe of the Day
Today’s recipe features ingredients that can be easily foraged from the countryside around you.
Method. First catch your cat…

From The Village Magazine Archives.
Aug 13 1963 – Mr Prescott is the first village resident to own a car, which he claims to have found in a layby just outside Wolverhampton – although he admits that it could have been a supermarket carpark. Mrs Prescott was, as we all know, rumoured to have been seen driving the vehicle in the days before her disappearance. Despite the many rumours, no human remains have been found and Mr Prescott assures us that the bonfire was a perfectly normal allotment fire and did not, in any way, involve a stake…

Aug 13 1973 – The Cricket team finally regained consciousness after winning the local league final on the fifth. Captain W.E. Johns was the first member of the team to ‘come to’ and, believing himself to be drowning in a tureen of Campbell’s Condensed Vegetable Soup, began berating the umpire, who had yet to find his way down from the window pelmet. A scuffle ensued in which several limbs were broken and a passing boy scout suffered lacerations to the woggle. Police were called, but were far too busy…

Aug 13 1993 – Mrs Cecilia Prescott (no relation) became the first resident of the village to own a personal computer which, ‘it is rumoured, she uses to contact the alien mothership. We would like to remind you all that it is no longer 1963 and accusations should be kept to a minimum. It is further reported that the Prescott home has burned down under mysterious circumstances (or, if it has not, it almost certainly will) and Mrs Prescott is herself responsible for the virus spreading around the school. The local pharmacist has admitted that she could have given him warts…’

Aug 13 2013 – The winner of the village poetry competition was Mrs B Clench, with her poem ‘Gladioli’
In summer when the rain has stopped
And morning sunshine twinkles
A flower blossoms in the yard
With stems just like a winkle.
I do not mean the mollusc,
No what I really mean is
It always brings to mind to me
My husband’s long-dead ~~penis.~~

I also find it very strange –
In fact it’s quite uncanny –
How much nasturtiums in the rain
Remind me of a ~~fanny~~*
I prefer the gladioli
And sometimes for a stunt
I…
Yes, well, I think that is probably quite enough of the Widow Clench’s elegiac poetry for now. If you wish to read more, you can find it at www.middle-agednimphopornographersweekly.com for a small fee…

Cont from Pg 2
…despite the strong smell of urine. In order to fully mix the ingredients, you may need the use of an industrial strength shredder. It may be wise to render the sheep unconscious. First, peel the lemmings…

*This being an English Fanny, which is quite unlike the American variety

Missing the Point

I took some time off from this bloggy world a few weeks ago and when I eventually settled myself into the ‘getting back on the bike’ groove, it struck me that these pages had started to become a little bit me-centric: that there is a limit to what anyone wants to know about someone they have never met and, more importantly, are probably unlikely to ever meet. You would still recognise me from my WordPress avatar. The beard ebbs and flows, but I remain five feet seven tall and red haired. Everyone (ok, if I’m honest, mostly very elderly women) tells me that I look young for my age. I have skin like limpid lard and bright, blue eyes, occluded only by the very earliest onset of cataract, crowned by eyelids that look as though they have been through fifteen rounds with Tyson Fury; rimmed with the kind of skin that screams of insufficient sleep and a vitamin intake that stops at A. You’d spot me at the airport – you wouldn’t need to know what I was thinking about or why. (Clue: it is generally chocolate, whisky or Sandra Bullock – the order is unimportant.)

So I decided that I should perhaps ring the changes a little bit – leave me out of it now and then – although not, I have to say, altogether: I’m much too fascinated by me to let me go completely. In truth I learn more about me by writing about me than I ever would by growing a goatee beard, sitting cross-legged on a black leather swivel chair, clutching a clipboard and asking myself about my relationship with my mother (not, you understand, that I would possibly be able to afford me.) This is my real-time Adrian Mole moment. I write about the inconsequentialities of my life in the hope that you might find something profound to think about them although I assure you, there was absolutely nothing profound about them when they left my head. Colin McQueen – specialist subject, ‘Missing the Point.’

I will continue to search for something new to tell you about me: whenever I manage to do something (or more likely – truth be told – think about doing something) that I have never done before: refuse a family-sized bar of Galaxy chocolate, pass up on the opportunity to be centre of attention, or go on a run just for the fun of it, you will probably be told. At length. But I won’t bore you with things that I am merely thinking of doing because a) the percentage of those that make the transition from brain to reality is miniscule and b) they just might be illegal, immoral or impossible to perform without a neck brace and the promise of a new hip.

I decided to let my brain off the leash a little more, and what you seem to be getting from ‘new me’ as a consequence is a lot like old me, only shorter. Like the earliest posts of this almost five years-old blog, the new ones feature snapshots from my mind, but with far fewer ‘selfies’ than you might have grown used to. I’ve, perhaps realised that I don’t need to explain, nor explore everything. If there is one thing I have learned about me, it is that there is so little to learn. It is pointless for me to try and debate the whys and wherefores: all I know is that when I write whatever-it-is that I write, it amuses me and when I post it, I hope it might amuse you too. Mutual disappointment, that is the glue that holds this whole thing together.

How things might go in the future, I have no idea. I am the world’s worst chess player. I seem only to be able to plan behind. I cannot plan ahead. Yesterday is gone, tomorrow hasn’t happened and today I have to try and shake off the image of a chocolate-coated Ms. Bullock from my mind.

I’ll let you know how that goes…